…I have been this way with other female friends since that episode. I believe that one can’t be too careful. I know that I operate in a rather paranoid world, where another woman seems empowered to destroy my chances of success with a guy, and so I preempt the situation.
The issue is your pwn judgement of yourselt. To your own standard you dont measure up, if you did youd feel comfortable being liked or not liked because you yourself are ok with whom you are which means being ok with giving peoplw the chance to like you or not, cause their appreciation won't be a judgement of your success, that success is how you live up to your own standard.

