People noticed that we hadn’t the strength to extricate ourselves from the letter affair and held this very much against us, it wasn’t that they underestimated the grave nature of our fate, although they did not know exactly what it was; if we had overcome this they would certainly have honored us accordingly, but since we hadn’t succeeded they made definitive what they had done only temporarily till then, they banished us from all circles, knowing that they themselves probably wouldn’t have withstood the test any better, but that this made it all the more necessary to make a complete break
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