Men are not convinced of your arguments, your sincerity or the seriousness of your suffering, except by your death. As long as you are alive, your case is debatable and you only deserve their scepticism. Then, if there was the slightest certainty that one could enjoy the sight of it, it might be worth proving what they do not want to believe and giving them a shock. But you kill yourself, and it doesn’t matter whether or not they believe you: you are not there to witness their astonishment and their contrition (short-lived, anyway), or to take part in your own funeral, as every man dreams of
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