This sense of envy contributes to a longing for love and acceptance on the one hand and a sense of shame for needing and not feeling worthy of love on the other. Fours’ sense of inner lack also contributes to a painful cycle in that it intensifies their sense that something good—and outside of them—must be sought and gained, even as they believe that they don’t deserve or can’t attain what is needed because they are somehow deficient. Envy thus keeps Fours focused on what they don’t have, and this focus fuels their sense of lack, which only perpetuates their envy.
