Survivor

by Chuck Palahniuk

It’s music as wallpaper, utilitarian, music as Prozac or Xanax to control how you feel. Music as aerosol room freshener.

You realize that people take drugs because it’s the only real personal adventure left to them in their time-constrained, law-and-order, property-lined world. It’s only in drugs or death we’ll see anything new, and death is just too controlling. You realize that there’s no point in doing anything if nobody’s watching.

Because the only difference between a suicide and a martyrdom really is the amount of press coverage.

I want my whole life lined with a topical anesthetic.