“Surrender is the key,” says Elaine. “Even now, whenever I try too hard, I mess it all up. Don’t try. Just listen to God’s directions.” Fuck. That God thing again. What God? Ever since I was a child, I’ve been shaking my fist at Heaven. From the moment I had a mind of my own, I knew there was no all-knowing, all-powerful, all-loving God. In Eastern Europe under the Stalinist regimes there used to be a saying: “You can be honest or intelligent or be a member of the Communist Party. In fact, you can be any two of the three, but not all three at the same time.” In the same way, I understood that
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