Half the time I’m completely winging this motherhood business. I get so afraid because we are running out of money. We have enough to live on for maybe two more months. Also, I just had no idea I had so much rage trapped inside me. I’ve never had a temper before. I’ve always been able to be mellow or make jokes. But we went through a difficult patch this evening when Sam was being hard to please, whiny and imperious and obviously feeling very sorry for himself, and at first I could kind of roll with it, shaking my head and thinking, It’s because he’s a male, he’s having an episode, this is
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