But he probed why I had “forgotten” my last appointment with him. I was beginning to lean on him. I was grateful to him. Why did I stop for a week? To stand on my own feet again, to fight alone, to take myself back, to depend on no one. Why? The fear of being hurt. Fear that Dr. Allendy should become a necessity and that, when the “cure” was finished, our relationship would end and I must lose him. He reminds me that it is a part of the cure to make me self-sufficient, so that by the time the visits are over I will not need him. But by not trusting him, now I have revealed that I am still
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