when I know without a shadow of doubt that I will never see him again in this life, I fall to my knees. Never in my life have I felt so numb. Asher was the ground beneath my feet, the air that filled my lungs, and the sun that shined above my head. He saved me from drowning. I’d been held under water for four minutes and fifty-nine seconds when I met him. I was one second away from fading.