I love him. He is the first man I have ever loved and he feels the same way about me. He loves me, and we have been to bed together, and it wasn’t frightening, the way I always thought it would be, it was just utterly right, and it was magic, all at the same time. I don’t care what the future holds for us, I don’t care about him not having any money. I want him to come back to me just as soon as he can, and if he is ill, I shall wait until he is well again, and I shall take care of him and we will live in the country and grow cabbages together.