This Time You Return To Yourself

by Duduzile Noeleen Ngwenya

And so we’re here, trying to mend and heal every version of ourselves, to nurture our inner child, and learn how to forgive ourselves for the times we didn’t know any better. I hope you learn to stay true to who you are.

one day you’ll understand you didn’t have to be different to be chosen by those who never chose you you never needed to do anything to be enough one day you’ll understand

to my inner child, it has always been okay for you to need reassurance. that is what being human is. everyone needs it sometimes.

I hope every day presents an opportunity for you to live up to the person you were created to be it’s going to be so lovely to see you embrace tha...

you’ve always been enough without your accomplishments, skills, talent or trying any...

I hope you learn how to view yourself from a place of grace, understanding that you will fail at some things, while you’re great at others. On both days, you’re enough.

should it take you a lifetime to learn your love language I hope you remember that you are worth being dedicated a lifetime for

it pains me to know that I’ve always been enough and didn’t live up to it. but I’m glad that I don’t stick around those who make me feel like I’m not, anymore.

when people make you feel unwanted, it’s not a call for you to try harder.

I hope you stop expecting love from people who continuously do what hurts you.

don’t just hold onto people because you love them keep thoughtful people in your life people who hold space for you people who reciprocate what you give don’t just hold onto people because you love them it’s not enough

For how long will you let yourself be available for people who occasionally choose you?

give yourself permission to miss the people who didn’t treat you the way you deserved without allowing them back into your life

I look forward to learning how to love someone with as many scars, fears and insecurities as you have, yet remaining as beautiful, and soft as you are. I look forward to loving you

You will fall in love with the right person someday. It won’t feel weird to blow up their phone with cute messages and calls just because you want to talk to them all the time. It won’t feel like you’re too clingy when you find excuses to be with them. Seeking reassurance from them won’t be necessary because they’ll flood you with words and actions that reaffirm that they are yours. It’ll just make sense to keep falling for them because for the first time, you’d have found the one who deserves your love.

anyone who’ll get to love you in this lifetime will be lucky because you are rare

Some days you’re not going to feel okay. Those days will be longer than the others; maybe because you’ll be trying to navigate your way through big emotions. In those days, please remember to treat yourself the way you would, someone you love.

That doesn’t mean you never moved; healing is not linear. Be gracious to yourself on those days.

to my inner child you’re safe now you don’t have to explain or cross your boundaries to make others comfortable or fear that no one will understand how you process big emotions I’m here you’re safe now

give people a chance. a chance to love you, or learn how to love you. there is no other way to go around it.

someday, you’ll let your guard down and it won’t be something you live to regret. because you’d have found the one who makes it easy to think you’ll never need to be on guard again.

this time I hope it’s real I hope it’s what you deserve this time I hope you don’t have to do anythin...

you didn’t have to do more to make them stay they just didn’t belong with you

choose to stay, maybe this time if you don’t leave, there won’t be anyone who leaves.

what if it works out this time? what if it’s the best thing that’s ever happened to you? what if it makes you happier than you’ve ever been? what if you don’t need to be on guard this time around? what if you can make it work? think of that more often

it’s not going to be easy trying to love the parts of you that you were made to believe are hard to love but it’s what you need from you

how people feel about you will always be reflected by their actions

those who are meant to stay will stay

remember to take care of you you are where you live you are your home

no one gets to take it away from you.