This Time You Return To Yourself

by Duduzile Noeleen Ngwenya

one day you’ll understand you didn’t have to be different to be chosen by those who never chose you you never needed to do anything to be enough

I hope every day presents an opportunity for you to live up to the person you were created to be it’s going to be so lovely to see you embrace that you were fearfully and wonderfully made

I think it’s important not to feel like you’re running out of time

should it take you a lifetime to learn your love language I hope you remember that you are worth being dedicated a lifetime for

it pains me to know that I’ve always been enough and didn’t live up to it. but I’m glad that I don’t stick around those who make me feel like I’m not,

when people make you feel unwanted, it’s not a call for you to try harder.

and if by staying where you are means you have to shrink, nullify or disguise even the tiniest parts of yourself, then it means you don’t belong there.

Who taught you that you were hard to love?

don’t just hold onto people because you love them keep thoughtful people in your life people who hold space for you people who reciprocate what you give

not everyone you lose is a bad person some people were only meant to stay in your life for a little while

sometimes the only change we get to see in the people we love, is the one that we fantasise about.

Love should never feel like you have to labour to be worthy of it.

I guess the problem with having a heart as big as mine is that even when people show me who they are, I still believe what I think they could be

as you envision where you want to be remember to be here in the present this is the only place you’ll ever need to be in

this is for the days when you feel like you’re struggling remember to breathe you’ve already overcome a lot

permit yourself to feel all your emotions you cannot cheat yourself out of them you can only feel them until you don’t anymore

you deserve to have someone show up for you countless times even if that someone is yourself

have more slow days have more, “I did nothing much” days you need them as much as you need, “I was very productive” days you need the slow days to remind you to pause, breathe and nurture your emotional and mental wellbeing so take more of those days they’re a response to the language your soul speaks

give people a chance. a chance to love you, or learn how to love you. there is no other way to go around it.

to my present self, I hope that growth and healing makes it easier for you to fall in love with yourself

you are called for something bigger than you. trust that God knew what He was doing when He entrusted you with it, and make a run for it, day by day.

Today, I give myself permission. to be happy about the little things that make me think life isn’t that bad.

it’s not going to be easy trying to love the parts of you that you were made to believe are hard to love but it’s what you need from you

I want you to be okay with how things don’t always turn out the way you planned; just living in the moment;

I want you to be okay with being human, both capable and incapable of doing some things, and just be you.

free yourself from habits that hold you back from being the best you can be

most times, things are not as bad as your mind tells you

those who are meant to stay will stay

open your heart to meaningful friendships that are a constant reminder that you’re easy to love, and it doesn’t take a lot to make you happy.

be very big on creating for yourself a life and routines that inspire you to be more grateful

learn to trust yourself to deal with how life events turn out, despite what you plan for it.

in the end it also matters how a person makes you feel about yourself

to my present self, no matter how long it takes for you to get through this, I know you’ll always come back to me.

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