This Time You Return To Yourself

by Duduzile Noeleen Ngwenya

I hope you learn how to view yourself from a place of grace, understanding that you will fail at some things, while you’re great at others. On both days, you’re enough.

I shrunk myself to receive love that wasn’t enough because I thought I couldn’t get the kind of love I knew deep in my heart, I truly deserved.

it is unfair, that after giving every part of your soul to people who only gave in crumbs, you’re still the one to piece yourself together. it is unfair, that even when you’ve accepted that you will not get an apology for being so hurt, you still long for one. it is unfair, that even when they’ve showed you their true colours, you still believe that love is enough to make them change for you.

I’m sorry that seeing other people receive love has become such a bitter experience a reminder of how much some people failed to love you a reminder of all the times you felt like you were hard to love a reminder of the times that you thought maybe the person who’s meant to love you doesn’t exist

I am learning that I have a lot to offer and I’m the type that goes all in. So, in the end, I hardly lose anyone… they lose me.