Let Me F*cking Cry

by Rhiannon Janae

I want to shove the world into a dark corner and tell it to go fuck off. I want to scream out all the ways it has let me down in hopes that somebody hears me and tells me it’s all going to be okay. I want to crumble all the mistakes I have made into my palms and watch as they fall through my fingertips as nothing but dirt. I want to ask why I have such a burden to bear when all I asked for was love. I want to understand others’ heartbreak without becoming angry with how it doesn’t compare to mine. I want to wake up as a version of myself who does not live with this loss etching itself deep inside my heart. I want to see the world for what it can be, and not for all that it has not been. -let me fucking cry