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“Why wouldn’t I be? You’re always the first thing I think about. Gotta protect what’s mine, baby.”
Watching her cry is equivalent to digging a shard of glass into my chest. I don’t like seeing her hurt, especially if it’s because of me.
“Then stop crying, baby. That hurts more than the wound itself.”
“They didn’t need to. I was already watching you.” “You were what?” I nearly choke on my own words. “I watched you, baby. For three years.”
Better yet, I want to be the reason why she has that expression on her face. Haunted happiness.
“Nothing is stupid about you, Nao.”
“Sebastian…please, baby…please open your eyes, please…I can’t…I can’t live without you anymore. I don’t want to imagine it, so please…please stay with me…” A low grunt leaves his throat and I straighten, sniffling. “Sebastian..?” “You…called me…baby…”
I smile at the amusement in his voice, allowing the salty tears inside my mouth. “I’ll call you anything you want. Just stay with me.” “Baby…” he grunts. “Yes?” “Marry…me.” “Huh?” “When…we get out…of here. Marry…me.”
“The one who will make you worthy of joining our family. In order to do that, you have to suffer a great loss.”
My grandparents still actively try to ruin me and Nate for turning our backs on them, but I couldn’t give a fuck about them and their legacy. If there’s anything I learned after being at the brink of death, it’s that I don’t have time to play other people’s games. I have my own.
They’re also Asher’s acquaintances through Aiden King, a mutual friend from England from when my childhood friend studied in Oxford.
I lost a part of my soul seven years ago and I’ve never managed to get it back.
In fact, I’ve forgotten the last time I genuinely smiled. It was robbed from me the same day I lost the meaning of living and started to simply exist.
It’s her. Naomi. The one who broke me. Broke us. Now, it’s time I do the same.
“For what exactly? For making me into a mafia princess, forcing me to get married or else you would’ve sold off my half-sister when we’re your own fucking flesh and blood, or threatening me with never allowing me to see my mom on her deathbed? Or maybe it’s making me believe that you were a father worth waiting for all these years?”
“Maybe I’m always there. Maybe I didn’t wake up in the hospital. Maybe I remained in that fucking cell for seven years.”
By the end of tonight, she’ll remember why the fuck she’s mine. She’s not Akira’s or anyone else’s. She’s fucking mine. Always has been and always will be.
And it’s all because of him. My heartbreakingly beautiful monster. My beast has made me feel wanted. Important. Alive.
But then again, that’s what we’ve always been, he and I. A sweet, cruel disaster that’s impossible to end, no matter how much we try.
need to know the reason. Tell me why I meant so little to you that you left me over the fucking phone.”
“Hear that? That’s the sound of my fucking heart ever since you returned. Because no matter how much I tell the fucker you betrayed it, he doesn’t understand. Make him fucking understand.”
It should’ve been my name attached to yours. My ring on your finger. My fucking arm around yours. You were my Naomi first. My fucking woman. But you went ahead and ruined it.”
“I’d go anywhere in the fucking world with you, baby.”
“You’re only saying that because you’ve never loved someone so much that being apart from them feels like drowning and burning alive at the same time. You’ve never stayed up all night, staring at the fucking sky with the minuscule hope that she’s also staring at it from a different nook in the world. You’ve never loved, period, Uncle. You’re nearing your forties and still are a cold-blooded bachelor with no settling down in sight.”
“But that’s the thing, Uncle. I’d rather die than live without being alive.”
Whether as Sebastian or Akira, the only woman who has ever managed to flip my world upside down is you.
He’s the person you understood and he understood you back. He’s the friend who smiles when reading your words late at night. He’s the man who fucking loves you with everything he has and doesn’t have. Sebastian Akira Weaver
I love him, Kai, and you might not understand what that means, but for me, that love is what makes my life wholesome.
“It was all scary, but I would do it all over again for you, Sebastian. I would go to hell if it means I get to be with you.”
