I was learning that life wasn’t an equation to be solved, that it wasn’t a matter of controlling all the pieces—my body, my eating, my training, my social circle, my marriage—and putting them in the correct places to achieve the desired result. I had treated myself like a robot for so long, thinking my discipline made me better than regular people. I finally understood that pursuing “greatness” didn’t fill me the way a “normal” life did. If I wanted to have a big life, I needed to live a smaller one.
