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“No spicy,” Umma says. “George can’t eat spicy.” Of course he can’t fucking eat spicy food.
My hand darts out and snatches the eye from the plate, and before I can think, I shove the entire thing into my mouth. The cartilage is thick and tough. I bite down until it pops, bursting open, its salty liquid oozing down my throat. It’s so good. There’s a hint of sweetness, a lemony tang, almost like a cherry tomato.
I have no money, just a few dollars that I found at home. It doesn’t amount to much. My bag is filled with notebooks and pens and pencils and printouts of school assignments. I don’t own anything valuable. The only thing I have is my body, and the thought of something being done to it makes me sick.
Don’t you know dieting is a patriarchal tool used to control women? It’s not your fault. The institutional sexism propagated through the mainstream media and our societal norms and the capitalist superstructure as a whole is a form of gender persecution.” Remembering my conversation with Alexis, I make a face, annoyed.
They’re so beautiful and elegantly designed. It was between those and a little porcelain doll that looked exactly like you. But the chopsticks won out in the end, since I know you’ll use them every day.” What the fuck?
“Well? Do you like them?” “Um . . .” My face is stiff and frozen. Why the fuck would you get me chopsticks? What is wrong with you?
I can’t believe it took me this long to notice what a screwup he is. He’s abrasive, pushy, and irritating. His quips about feminism are just showboating, an attempt to make himself appear better than other men. His shirts are stupid.
My family is asleep when I get home. I take off my shoes in the darkness and stand, reveling in George’s nearness. He’s so close. George’s keys and wallet sit on the counter. Smiling to myself, I take out his driver’s license, walk over to the kitchen sink, and jam it down the garbage disposal.
The words fly out from my mouth before I can stop them. “What are you doing?” Umma swivels back slowly. She’s anguished, the tear tracks glistening on her cheeks. “What?” she whispers. Shaking, I stand and face her. “You heard me. Why are you acting like this over a man who doesn’t care about you?”
“Unni . . .” she whispers. I silence my sister with a wave of my hand. “It’s pathetic. I can’t understand you. You drag Ji-hyun and me through this mess, and then we’re left behind trying to clean it up. You don’t even care about how your actions affect us. All you think about is yourself.” Umma’s lip quivers, and then she turns and dashes into her bedroom, slamming the door behind her.