That night, hope died, as did my sense of self. I didn’t sacrifice who I was, not exactly. It was ripped from me. Jimmy’s little blackbird died a slow and painful death. In her place I built a gaudy, colorful, blue bird. A loud, obnoxious peacock with bright feathers, who dressed to call attention to her beauty at every moment, and craved affection. But it was all just a bright disguise.
