Felix (New York Players #4)

by Lulu Moore

Because right now, our love is nothing more than Russian Roulette. With my finger on the trigger and the bullseye over my heart.

Because here’s a secret I’ve never told anyone. Not one living soul. I used to be in love with Felix Cleverly. And after tonight, after that kiss, I’m pretty sure I still am.

“She has, you just don’t remember. And then you were asleep.” “Well, I’m not asleep now.” “She’ll be back. You heard Nurse Sunshine; she’s in surgery.

“I think if there’s the smallest chance you could find love like I have, then you should go for it. Guys, love is awesome, you gotta just go for it.” He clasped his palm to his chest, right over his heart. “Emerson is my person and Molly is your person, and Jupe – what’s her name?”

Because everything had suddenly become crystal clear; that the last twelve years of our friendship was the dress rehearsal for what was about to happen. For the rest of our lives. Together.

“While we’re not taking any questions at this time, I can confirm that Molly and I are together. And we’re leaving. Happy New Year, guys.”

“When you stop, I stop.” “Drew...” He shook his head. “I’m serious. I’m not playing without you. And if the last few months have shown me anything, it’s that I don’t want to. We’ll do something else. We can start a foundation or coach or do anything we want.”

I would never find anyone as loyal as Drew and he couldn’t be more of a brother to me if we shared DNA.

Happy Valentine’s Day, Mol. The first one of forever. I love love love you. Felix xxx P.S. Do you know how many times a day the human heart beats? About one hundred thousand, and all of my heartbeats are for you <

“You think I don’t know that our lives will revolve around your job? That you won’t always come home when you say you will? That when we have kids, I’ll be the one on diaper duty and doing the school drop off? I get that. I’m not the one changing lives here, you are.” Her bloodshot eyes bore through me. “We’re having kids?” “Yes we fucking are! We’re a family, dammit, and that’s what I see in our future. Don’t you?”