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“It’s not the same,” I mumble. “It is, though,” he snaps at me. “You know if you want him, you’re gonna have to want only him, right?”
He’s also next-level obsessive, and totally fucking crazy.
“I… I’m confused,” I whisper. “You make me nervous, Ren…” My face is like a furnace, but now I’ve shifted on top of him, and I’m thrusting
the words. “Could you c-come like this?” His broad chest lifts as he arches up to me. “Baby, anything you do with me will make me come.” I swallow hard, kissing his throat. “Really?” “Mhm…” “Are you sure?” “Yes, Lex, baby, I’m so sure…” Baby…
I’m suddenly overcome by intense, gnawing emotions. I have no clue where they came from, but they’re blazing inside me like huge, ravenous flames. “Ren,” I whimper, lifting my face and grabbing his jaw. And before I can even process it, I’m kissing him. I’m kissing him
“You’re a dream come true, baby,” he whispers. “All I want is this…” His lashes flutter, head tips back. “Just you… Baby, oh fuck, Lex
My lips part, but I can’t bring myself to say what I want to. Don’t hook up with anyone else, please…
Not that I want to sympathize with Callum, but the idea of stealing Lex’s virginity has turned me into a walking hard-on.
I just feel like he’s mine, and there’s no going back. I need to be Lexington Deon’s first, more than I need to breathe.
“He means the world to me,” I tell him sincerely. “I don’t want to hurt him… I want him to be happy. And I think I could make that happen.” “Just make sure you’re both speaking the same language,” he goes on. “For you, sex is just sex, and feelings are something completely different. That’s not the case with everyone.”
“I don’t think I can have… sex with you, Ren. You’re my friend. It’s gonna get weird.” “It won’t be weird,” I murmur, gently nipping the sweet, warm flesh of his neck. “You don’t know that…” he hums. “What if something happens, and we end up hating each other? I can’t… lose you. I have no one else in here.”
We’re already in Hell. Whether it’s wrong or not, I will keep Lex Luthor Deon here so he can burn with me forever.
“You’re never going to lose me, Lex,” I tell him with certainty. “Whatever happens, I’ll always be right here with you. That part won’t change.” He nods, reluctantly, but still. I’m getting through to him. “I just want you to be happy. I don’t want you always wondering, you know?”
I get all his first moments. If I could have had his first kiss too, my life would be complete. But I have his first gay kiss, so it still counts.
He called me baby… Lexington just called me baby… I’ve never swooned so hard in my life.
“L-lex… Lexington…” “Feels so good,” he hums, biting down on my shoulder while his whole body tenses. “Come on my fingers, sweet flame.”
“You do look good in this…” I swallow, blinking at his face. “You like it?” “I think you would look good in just about anything,” he murmurs. Confidently.
“What’s the alternative then?” He rests his head on my shoulder to kiss my neck. “I won’t share you. I know myself; I wouldn’t be able to stand it.” “You don’t have to,” I croak, jaw straining to keep myself in check. “I’ll stop.”
“I want to be with only you, Lex,” I whisper, shockingly convincing, even for me. “I’ll do anything to make that happen. Baby, I will try so hard not to hurt you. I’ll be what you need… Anything for you.”
You’re you, Dash. And sometimes chaotic beginnings can lead to a beautiful end.”
“Maybe that means you don’t have the same kinds of feelings that I have for you…” I gulp over these potential truths. “But whatever. The point is that I am sorry, and I want you to know I’m always thinking of you. You’re… so much more important than you realize.”
“You know Ren would die.” He chuckles. “Putting something permanent on you must be like his dream come true.” Heat rises in my cheeks as I purse my lips. “Just make sure you get it where you can see it. Otherwise, you’ll end up with Property of Warren Xavier on your lower back.”
Kang might be right. I seem to have a virgin mentality. Always dwelling on the first time needing to be special
But it’s not just me anymore… No matter how toxic it is, how codependent and confusing and downright fucking stupid, I could never leave Ren. Ever.
He felt like I was doing it on purpose, to brand him. He was totally right. The way I see it, he’s always been mine, whether he realizes it or not… Agree to disagree, I guess.
hips. “What do you wanna to do? Anything at all. Name it and it’s yours.” He gazes at me, a teasing look I love seeing on his face. “I’m still waiting on those fireworks…” I grin, eyes trained on his mouth. “You want some bang bang, beautiful?”
Maybe some people would want to preserve that. But not me. I want to be all manners of bad with him, for him… on him. Shit, I probably sound so toxic, but I want to ruin everything about this boy so he’s mine forever. Beginning with marking up this blank canvas.
“I missed your fucking mouth…” he growls shakily, and I’m fucking flying. “So, so bad. I missed how warm and wet it is, and how your tongue slithers around like… uhhmff like that.” Fuck yea… Goddamn, I love sucking him.
I could lick, suck, kiss, worship this cock every day for the rest of my life and still never get enough.
“I always knew you liked my hurt, baby boy,” I rumble in between kissing him deep, our tongues lashing and tasting while he pushes his cock against mine. “You… it’s just you, sweet flame,” he mewls, grabbing my hands and dragging them down to his chest, leaving smudges of black ink on his pale skin, like the sexiest mess ever. “You make me crazy.”
He’s all I want. He’s always been… All of it.
But just know, every moment I’m with you… is fireworks over the ocean.”
“Because you’re selfish. All you care about is Ren, and that’s never gonna work for me. So just… leave it alone, okay?” Yanking out of his hold, I stagger away while he calls out, “But what about the fireworks?” Turning back one last time, I mutter, “There are no more fireworks for us. Not in here.”
Why can’t you just let me fucking go?!” “I can’t…” he whispers. “Why not??” I growl. “Because I fucking love you!” he shouts in my face, and I falter. “I’ve loved you since the second I saw you, and I don’t understand it! I don’t want to feel this shit… This twisted up ball of need in my chest like fucking disease. I don’t even know if it really is love, that’s how fucked up I am. I never knew what this felt like… until you.”
“Because I want to do everything in my power to make you happy… even when you hate me and refuse to look at me. I want to be next to you all the time… Just breathing the same air as you. I want to hold your hand and kiss your neck, and I want you to want me to… more than I’ve ever wanted anything. I feel like I could slaughter anyone who causes you pain, including myself. It’s so unbearably fucked up, but I would open a vein and bleed just to make you smile… That has to mean I’m in love with you… Right?
“It doesn’t matter if I’ve never felt it before. In my soul, I know what this is… I’m desperately in love with you, Lexington, and I never won’t be. Believe me, I’ve tried. Even if it tears us both to shreds… I’m so sorry, baby, but I can’t stop. As long as I’m breathing, I won’t ever stop feeling the way I feel about you. In crazy, fierce, burning fucking love
He’s the negative to my positive, and here we are… Together. Fully charged.
“Hm? Sorry, I couldn’t hear you over how fast your heart is beating.” He grins on my flesh while playing with my fingers. Grabbing his face fast, I rip him off my neck so I can see the skies in his eyes. “Me, Warren,” I growl, and he bites his lip. “I think it should be only me.” He whimpers. “You know I’ve been waiting for you, baby…” A ragged breath flees my lips, slipping between his. “I guess I was waiting for me, too.”
“I want…” My broken thought fades off when I shove his pants and boxers down. “Take it,” he purrs, kicking them off the rest of the way. “It’s yours. Everything I have is all yours, Lexington.”
“Baby, I’m gonna come if you keep acting all hot-boy virgin like this,” he says on a hoarse whimper. “You’re my weakness, Lex. You, just the way you are… my goddamn kryptonite.”
“No, but seriously… it’s all you, baby. I always knew it would feel like this with you.” “Like what?” I kiss his jawline. “Fireworks,” he sighs, and I grin. “Over the ocean?” He chuckles. “Mmm… the best kind.”
“I want you,” I whimper, kissing his mouth softly while he mewls. “I want to erase all the others who came before me… Pun intended.”
“You love me?” “I love you so hard, Lexington. You’re everything to me…” “I… I love… you too,” he stammers, and my movements slow. “I really fucking love you, Warren.” Foreheads resting together, chests fluttering, I’m splitting down the middle. “Don’t toy with me…”
So right now, in this padded cell, with uncertainty just outside, I’ll let his chaos settle me. Like fireworks over the ocean.
“I love you so, so much… I’m like a virgin with you, Lexington. It’s all brand-new sensations.” “I love you, Warren,” he breathes, kissing me slow, fingers combing through the strands of my tousled hair. “Let’s lose our virginities together.” “I can’t wait to put my dick in you for the first time.” I fist my slick erection, aiming it up to his ass.
“It’s him,” I gasp a chuckle, my feet bringing me in the direction of my fireworks. It’s Ren, I know it is. He’s alive. And it looks like he kept his promise.
“Baby, I don’t know how to do this without you…” I shudder, pulling the pillow and hugging it against my chest, squeezing it tight. “There is no me without you, Lexington. Please come back to me…”
