just because your body is ready to take that step doesn’t mean your mind is. Some survivors of sex crimes distance themselves from touch while others act out sexually in order to regain the control they feel like they’ve lost. I know nothing about your sexual relationship with Christian, but perhaps you feel this way because your sex life involved giving up control to him, and you trusted him to make you feel safe. Maybe that’s what you crave now. Not sex. Safety.” She pauses for a moment. “I think you’re very brave for tolerating touch and affection at all.”
