Amid the whirlpool of reactions that comes with a grave medical diagnosis is the agony that your life is happening at random, and there’s nothing you can do about it. The first time we spoke, Racheli said that the ability to upload YouTube videos and impact her subscribers for the better made the experience feel less meaningless. “It helped me feel like the hard times were counting for something,” she said, “that they weren’t just happening for no reason.”
