I backspace and backspace, knowing Leigh doesn’t want to hear it all anyway. Instead I write, lets get together soon!!!!! and Leigh writes, absolutement!!!!!! for drinks and treats!!!!!! and I say, yes please!!!! knowing we won’t make a plan, we won’t see each other for months, we won’t reveal ourselves to each other; I will look back on this one day as a moment in which I inched myself one step closer to total loneliness: to exactly what I was afraid of the whole time.