I want to make a joke, to refuse him, to tell him I can’t marry him. To keep us in the black and white we have grown comfortable in and not push us back into those shades of gray that I could never understand, but I can’t, because it’s him. The boy I fell in love with when I was a child, now a man I would do anything for, especially when it comes at the price of helping the one person we both love most in the world. It might hurt me, change me, break me irrevocably, but if there’s one thing I could never do, it’s say no to Josh Peters.
