Euphoria

by F.S. Yousaf

I am thankful for the ones that have seen the most of me, and stayed. I am thankful for the ones Who left Before knowing all of me.

I will care for you In every possible way I can, But when your negativity Starts to seep into my well being That is when I have to Let go.

I do not desire a life Where I am constructed by normality. I crave a different life, Something unlike others.

I refuse to become One of the many stories In your book of deceptions.

You have to promise me That this is something We will work on. We will argue, we will fight, But we must make sure That it won’t be the end of us.

One of the only thoughts that can get me through a day Is that whatever happens is meant to happen, And for everything that leaves, There is always something better on the way.

To feel lost is natural, In time You will find yourself Where you need to be, And be more settled Within your surroundings.

I am overwhelmed by how much My thoughts toy with me. Surrounded by love and support, Yet believing That I am utterly alone.

If it does not strike often, it will hit with full force. A week’s worth of happiness Becomes a night filled with intrusive, And horrible thoughts. I become incapacitated, And know that if I give leverage to these thoughts, I will lose.

I win when I do not fall victim to myself.

You make me feel All the love That I have lost in my lifetime.

I am tired of worrying Over the expanding tension That resides in me. Let me live a little Before I collapse.

She was there through All your pain and suffering, And every challenge and test, Yet you betrayed her. Afterwards, you showered her with Half-hearted apologies. She deserved so much more Than a half-made man.

That no one is guaranteed tomorrow.

Tell me when you are gone For good, So I can Finally start Working on myself.

It has only been a short while, But I feel as if I have grown exponentially. Reborn within my own flesh, Igniting from various struggles That I did not expect.

I have to constantly reinforce That I will be okay, No matter what happens in life Or what terrible thoughts cross my mind. I am exhausted,

We tend to forget that we are not alone