Euphoria

by F.S. Yousaf

There is nothing more delightful Than you, my love. Even though you do not think so, I hold you closer Than anything else That has entered my life.

You have to promise me That this is something We will work on. We will argue, we will fight, But we must make sure That it won’t be the end of us.

The way you have seen me Is rarely witnessed by others. I am bare-bodied, My thoughts, aspirations, and love Lay on the floor before you.

I dream of you, they are pleasant And I feel at ease with the way My mind has painted your being. But when I wake, I regret doing so. Only because you are not next to me, And too far for my hands to feel your skin.

She enlightened my mind, and softened my heart. Her laugh was a killer, The kind that added light to a dull afternoon. She was caring, And I envied that she beat my love for her tenfold. She was exactly what people searched for, And just what I needed.

You make me feel All the love That I have lost in my lifetime.

My heart swells Under the pressure Of not being enough. But she reminds me Time and time again That no one else Could complete her

Why you are still resting in my mind When I am thinking at night. I cannot come up with any reason You happen to find your way into my words. And at two in the morning, When I cannot sleep, You are all that stays. It’s a repeated cycle that I cannot live without.

Your love has healed All the years of hurt that had built up within me.

You memorized each Of my weaknesses As if they were your own. Using them, And lashing out at me At the first drop Of emotional distress.

We created illusions For the life we lived, and for the love we felt. Admitting that was the hardest thing I've done, But I feel undeniably, And finally free.

My weak thoughts Accumulated into something vicious, Tearing me up From the inside out.

How much of a fool I was To have loved wholeheartedly Without fearing the outcome Of no reciprocation.

My love for you outweighed the love that I carried for myself, and that’s when I realized that you had full control over me.

I am overwhelmed by how much My thoughts toy with me. Surrounded by love and support, Yet believing That I am utterly alone.

She was there through All your pain and suffering, And every challenge and test, Yet you betrayed her. Afterwards, you showered her with Half-hearted apologies. She deserved so much more Than a half-made man.

You would put any person over me, If it meant that you would look better For the world. This truth was a simple one, But difficult to grasp.

I always tried to drag the love out of the depths of your heart, But even then it was all temporary

Love and hope are two that have Taken me for a fool.

I am thankful for the ones that have seen the most of me and stayed. I am thankful for the ones Who left before knowing all of me.

And I am somewhat grateful That you took some of my sadness with you.

I did not go through years of struggle only to come out feeling empty. I deserve an ounce of peace.

One of the only thoughts that can get me through a day Is that whatever happens is meant to happen, And for everything that leaves, There is always something better on the way.

You were irreplaceable, As our blood had me bound. Even after your departure, A speck of love remained, Yearning for what it had lost. I met someone Along my path Who gave me something that certainly Made up for your absence. a family