Hard, slow swallow, like trying to push down a blade. Everyone was watching me. “I don’t know how we would have survived without y’all. I truly don’t. Y’all saved us, time and time again, and I don’t know how I can ever show my thanks.” My voice cracked. It felt like there was no oxygen, like I was underwater and drowning, like I couldn’t escape and couldn’t move and was going to die.