Powerless (Chestnut Springs, #3)

by Elsie Silver

And for Sloane I keep every promise, no matter how badly they hurt.

He’s consumed every corner of me since I first laid eyes on him,

But salivating over Jasper Gervais is part of my personality at this point.

the way I love Sloane might not be how one friend loves another at all.

“Nah, Sunny. You’re my only girl.”

Everything in the world feels wrong. But standing here with Sloane in my arms feels right.

getting attached hurts,

Jasper: I don’t like talking to people. Sloane: You talk to me. Jasper: You’re not people. Sloane: Lmao. What am I then? Jasper: My person.

For Jasper I’d do anything.

I’m going to get comfortable disappointing other people to avoid disappointing myself. I won’t apologize for doing things the way I want to do them. I’m ready to be unapologetically me and let go of the people in my life who don’t approve of the person I am now.

I’m inclined to think men are the problem. Us women would be just fine without all of you fucking us up.”

I’m mad at him for all the things he hasn’t told me. But I’m also attached to him. Probably already forgiven him. Most likely irretrievably in love with him.

“See, Sloane? You can wear someone else’s ring, but we both know you’ve always been mine.”

With Sloane the rest of the shit in the world doesn’t matter because when I’m beside her, it always feels right. It soothes me. She soothes me. She always has. She’s that person for me. I’m out of my depth with her but this is Sloane. My Sloane. No matter what, we’re there for each other. My Sloane.

“It’s always been you, Jasper. It will always be you.”

Because we’re me and you. We’re us. Unlikely and inevitable all at once. We’re forever.”

I’m fed the fuck up with boys and their bullshit.

“I’m done settling for less than I deserve.

You’re not just tattooed on my skin. You’re branded on my heart. Woven into the fiber of my being. The most constant and reassuring person in my life. When I close my eyes, I see you. When you’re away from me, I dream about you. When I need someone to lean on, you are always there for me. God. You’ve loved me when I haven’t even been able to love myself.”