more; higher oh help me and still more to a point that, oh God, I had never imagined there could be so much pain in all the world, certainly not contained in the stupid simple vessel of my body, my body, and as I wondered why I was still alive my conscious eyes closed, taken by tunnel vision to a vanishing point, but though I couldn’t see I could still feel, oh my yes, oh my God, wouldn’t this ever stop? It didn’t. But I did.
