Betrayal. Violation. Heartbreak. Unimaginable loss. All of those things are in my ledger, dripping red, an angry slash of a check mark beside them. Each one a reminder of my suffering, stirring up the pain I try my damnedest to keep a lid on because I can’t allow it to touch the three people I love most in the world. Especially not now, when we’ve finally found footholds in this life without Eric. The first two years were rough for all of us, but by the time the third anniversary came around, I think we’d gotten used to marking the years, to living with the cracks in our collective hearts
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