I did keep the envelope though, the one I had found in my locker the week I returned to school, with the hastily scrawled From my people to your people on the front. The two fifty-euro notes I had given to Mam when I got home from school, but I had tucked the envelope into my pillowcase for safekeeping. I didn’t have an explanation for why I didn’t throw it out, the same way I couldn’t explain why my body broke out in a cold sweat, my hands turning clammy, my heart fluttering rapidly, and my stomach twisting itself up in knots, whenever I laid eyes on him. Well, that wasn’t technically true.
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