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I once read somewhere that we mature with damage, not with age.
Oh shannon.
stared at my reflection in the mirror and forced myself to practice something I rarely did these days: smile.
class, I made a couple of close friends, Claire and Lizzie, whose friendship had made school bearable for me.
Hughie aligning himself with Patrick, and me with the gobshite himself.
HAHA
“My dad’s going to kill me,”
Nooo Shannon my baby 😔
“Jimmy?” “It’s Johnny.” “Oh. Johnny?” “Yeah?” “Are you mad at me?”
I can’t anymore this is too funny
feeling like I would promise all the fucking promises in the world just to make this girl feel better.
When’s it my turn ?
It was an honest-to-god megawatt smile. She was just so fucking pretty.
“Did you ever talk to Shannon Lynch after that day on the pitch?” I turned my bleary gaze on him, too drunk to mask my curiosity. “My Shannon?” Hughie laughed. “She’s your Shannon now?”
Damn straight she is
“Lovely girl,” he added thoughtfully. “Horrible family.”
My heart.. shattered
Johnny’s attention wasn’t on the medic or the referee shouting commands in his ear. He was too busy looking at me.
AGHHHH I SEE YOU LOOKIN U MUST LIKE ME OR SUM
“What—no! I’m grand,” I quickly replied. “I have allergies.” “Me too. To assholes and bullshit,” Johnny snarled. “Now, tell me who made you cry and I’ll fix it.”
Johnny Kavanagh the man you are
“Now,” I sneered, glaring down at their faces. “Who wants to call my girlfriend a whore to my face?”
DEAD. GONE. BURIED.
You could love this girl your whole life, the crazy thought persisted inside my brain over and over, if you just let yourself.
“Keep your girlfriend away from mine and we’ll be rosy.”
“I only want you.”
I think I’m in love with you. I think I’m falling. Please don’t hurt me. Please don’t ever hurt me.
“Boom, fucking boom, boom.”
’cause I’m in love.” “You’re in love?” I nodded happily. “And she’s a river.”
“And I’m gonna buy her a ring…and a dog…and sail a boat…
“You found her, Gibs!” I exclaimed. “Thank fuck. I thought I lost her.”
“I did, buddy,” Gibsie chuckled softly. “I brought Shannon back to you.”
“I lied,” I snickered. “I’ve been lying all along.” “Oh, Johnny,” Mam sighed. “You never had to lie, baby. I like that girl.”
“She’s the one,”
and then I was blinded in light. A few moments passed by in hushed whispers. And then I heard those two words. “Hi, Johnny.” “Boom, boom, fucking boom, Da,” I groaned, slapping a hand against my chest. “I’m done for.”
I think im gonna cry
I Won’t Leave You
“Boom, boom, fucking boom, Da,” Johnny slurred, clutching his chest. “I’m done for.”
“Light up the world. You need to see this girl.”
“Always you,” Johnny groaned.
“See her, Da? See? So fucking beautiful!” Johnny announced. “Told ye all.” Oh god…
“Shannon,” Johnny slurred, sounding terribly groggy. “She’s too far away.” “I’m here, Johnny,” I croaked out. “You’re here?” He nodded, more to himself than anyone else. “Don’t leave me again.” My heart squeezed in my chest and my words came out in a small puff. “I won’t.”
“I love you, Shannon like the river,” he slurred. My heart stopped. Did he just? No. No, of course he didn’t. “I fucking love you,” Johnny said again. Oh god. He did. He absolutely did. Twice.
AGHHHHHHH
“It’s family only.” “She’s my wife,”
And here is where i died
“I’m gonna keep you.” “Okay.” Relenting to his madness, I coaxed him to lie back on his pillow. “You can keep me.”
“Tell me you love me,” he pleaded. “Johnny—” “Tell me.” Inhaling a steadying breath, I whispered, “Johnny, I love you.” “Thank fuck,”
AHH UR RIGHT THANK FU
“I’m only ever thinking about you,” he replied. “Only you.”
😉😉
“If this is love, then it’s you,”
“You are love.” He sighed contently. “Stay with me.” Always.
“Who’s making you sad?” he asked then, voice slurred and sleepy. “Tell me, baby.” “Nobody, Johnny.” “You lie and it hurts my heart,” he groaned, tightening his hold on me. “All those marks. It hurts when I know someone’s hurting my Shannon.” “Johnny—” “Who’s hurting you, baby?” he slurred sleepily. He yawned loudly and then sighed. “I’ll fix it.” “It’s a secret,” I breathed, feeling my body shake. “I won’t tell,” he whispered. Inhaling a trembling breath, I clenched my eyes shut and pressed my lips to his ear. “My father.”
Just kidding...my grave lies here, on this very page
“Shannon’s gone home, Johnny.” My heart sank.
My father.
Stupid ah btch
