“That it opened my eyes. And that it was the first time I’d felt anything in a long time. I thought it was just the fact of kissing someone, anyone. Of having that kind of intimacy after so long. I thought it was about loneliness and feeling lost and maybe even distraction, or I wanted to put it down to that.” The intensity of his gaze hit me in the chest. “And I’m sure that was part of it, but it was also . . . mostly . . . about you, Holden. Just . . . you. And it’s taken me a bit of time to come to terms with the unexpected shock of that.”
