The man I want to be with does not offer up his number at the beginning and so I do not ask. He emails which is clunky and cumbersome but there is an unspoken understanding he does not want to be easily contactable by me. We have short bursts of intense contact which I increasingly have to initiate and then nothing for weeks in between. He is in Hydra in Greece installing a joint show of work with his wife. I’m not supposed to know about this show but I do
