Call It What You Want

by Alissa DeRogatis

I knew it the entire time. I knew he wouldn’t be able to get where I wanted him to. I just hoped that I was wrong.

I was willing to settle for whatever he would give me because a fraction of him was better than nothing at all.

“Stop losing your mind over someone who doesn’t mind losing you.”

“But here’s the thing— you can’t wait for them. You can’t keep choosing someone who doesn’t choose you.”

Your person is out there and they’re going to be your person for the rest of your life. You won’t have to worry about this one foot in, one foot out situation with them. They’re going to choose you and they’re going to stay. Forever.”

You know those little moments you long for in relationships? This was one of those. I always wanted someone to surprise me. Whether it was knocking on my door unannounced, sending flowers to my office just because, or showing up at a special event I wasn’t expecting them at. Reese showing up makes me feel important.

you deserve better than someone who isn’t sure about you.”

That you would do anything for someone who couldn’t give two shits about you? For the last eight months, I’ve tried to show you the kind of love you deserve but clearly that wasn’t enough. You’d rather wait on someone who’s hurt you time and time again. You’re just as fucked up as him.”

He probably does still have feelings for you but that isn’t what matters. What matters is what he’s doing about it, which is nothing. If he’s doing nothing, you should most certainly be doing the same. Not breaking up with your damn near perfect boyfriend for him. You deserve someone who goes out of their way to make it obvious that they want you in their life.”

“Sometimes love stories aren’t epic novels. Some are short stories, but that doesn’t make them any less filled with love,” Carrie says.

“I just need you to know that you can’t do this to me anymore. There’s no going back after tonight. I can’t keep doing this to myself anymore. I love you so much that it hurts. It’s made me physically ill on more than one occasion. Love shouldn’t hurt. Love shouldn’t make you sick. I know that you’re not ready and nothing I can say or do will ever change that. The only person that can change that is you. I would’ve done anything for you—”

“One day he’s going to wake up and realize that he lost the best thing he ever had. He lost the only person who would’ve loved him through anything. I hope he hurts. I hope he regrets. But even more importantly, I hope he learns. I hope he learns that love isn’t always easy. Love is compromise. Love is understanding. Love is accepting. Someone else is going to give you all of that and more one day, and I can’t wait to see who he is.”

Here’s the thing about unconditional love though— it isn’t one sided.