“In my head, you’re up there watching me, watching this. Every time I smile, I feel guilty, so I lash out at everything and everyone. It hurts because you are gone, and I can’t share any of this with you. I read your note, and I know you wanted me to just move on, but it’s so hard, Gabs. It’s very hard, but they do help. They do. He does. And it makes me feel worse because being happy without you here is….” My eyes stung, and I closed them to hold back the tears. “I guess what I am saying is I want to be happy again too, and it doesn’t mean I have forgotten about you or anything we have been
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