“I don’t know what it means for your future,” she says. “I haven’t gotten that far ahead. First I need to sell Ron on the whole idea. So to that point, it’s really important that you don’t tell anyone this is even a possibility. I don’t want to destabilize people until we have solid news for them.” Maybe I don’t count as people, because Lorna has just destabilized the fuck out of me and doesn’t seem a bit bothered about it. A nitrousy numbness is moving down my neck into my upper back. “Of course,” I say. “Not a word.
