YOU [that is, the reader, not the character] are welcome to take a break here given the extremity of the content explored in the next series of chapters. It isn’t shameful to take a break. It is in fact encouraged that you do so right here, so that this novel does not become overwhelming to you. Take a break, get a cup of tea or some water. Maybe go for a walk. Then come back and continue reading, safe in the knowledge that you [the reader] have fortified your constitution and thus can handle what follows.