“A long time ago I threw away something I shouldn’t have,” she says. “Something I loved more than anything else. I was afraid that some day I’d lose it. So I had to let it go myself. If it was going to be stolen from me, or I was going to lose it by accident, I decided it was better to discard it myself. Of course I felt anger that didn’t fade, that was part of it. But the whole thing was a huge mistake. I should never have thrown it away.”