There Is Room for All of You Here

by Michaela Angemeer

my short term memory’s fried but i can still tell you everyone who wronged me as a child

i’m grieving my father but he’s still alive and i don’t know if i’ll have any feelings left when he dies

do we accept the love we think we deserve or do we accept the love we were taught we deserved

i refuse to believe that i don’t get to choose how i’m loved

i wanna buy you a side table even though you've never been in my bed where's the line between hopeful and unhinged i don't wanna make the same mistakes again

i didn’t know you existed six weeks ago but now you’re making me pancakes kissing my forehead buying me flowers calling me honey singing my favourite songs if you keep this up i might start to think that being with you is better than being solo

you deserve a count on me love. a coffee in the morning love. a makes you playlists kind of love. a play with your hair while you fall asleep kind of love. a call into work cause they don’t want to leave you kind of love. a stay in bed all day kind of love. a spontaneous gift cause it reminds them of you kind of love. a smiles at you for no reason kind of love. a bring you cookies when you have cramps kind of love. an understanding love. a love that wants to grow with you. a love that sees your unwashed hair, your crusty morning eyes, your overthinking, a love that loves you even more because of it. you deserve an unconditional love. a love that makes you feel safe.

what an overwhelming joy it is to find your person after not having one for so long

hope you create moments for yourself in every day. i hope you take deep breaths of fresh air. i hope you remind yourself you’re alive. i hope you love. i hope you realize there are so many things in this life to be in love with. i hope you cherish yourself as much as your relationships. i hope you don’t treat love like it’s a secret. i hope you shout it from the rooftops. i hope you witness all the parts of yourself. i hope you hug your inner child as often as you can. i hope you remember that your purpose in life is to enjoy living. i hope you know that being yourself is enough. i hope you say no to the things that want to hold you back. i hope you feel free. and most of all, i hope you find peace.