There Is Room for All of You Here

by Michaela Angemeer

only seeking unavailable men thinking i had to try to get them to love me when i could’ve just been gay instead

can’t someone be consistent for once can’t one person stick to their word not make me second guess or double check i’m not asking for much just don’t say you’ll be there if you have no plan to

just when i thought i got used to everyone leaving more people are planning their departures and i can’t do another goodbye

i hope you know that being open to love again after giving up on it is one of the greatest acts of bravery. even though you’re terrified, you are so courageous. i know vulnerability feels like prying your chest open with scarred palms, but what if it’s worth it? what if you find someone just as soft as you. what if you find someone who knows you don’t deserve to be discarded. what if being seen becomes effortless. what if feeling doesn’t have to hurt. what if they make everything you’ve been through worth it. what if they teach you how to love again.

when it was cloudy for six days straight you were the sun

i wanna buy you a side table even though you've never been in my bed where's the line between hopeful and unhinged i don't wanna make the same mistakes again

i don’t wanna move too fast but i do have an extra toothbrush i don’t wanna move too fast but should we get matching tattoos i don’t wanna move too fast but do you want to go to chicago i don’t wanna move too fast but do you want to uhaul i don’t wanna move too fast but do you want to love me

when i wrote i think i could love you on your back with my fingertip did you feel it could you love me too

i’ve been by myself for so long that when i feel off balance it’s instinctual to push you away but i don’t want you to leave i need you to stay

i wonder if i’m the first person you called sunshine or kissed three times is this new to you too

are you staying over tomorrow i don’t wanna wash my sheets until i know when they’ll smell like you again

i wanna be softer than

i’ve ever been for you

when you whispered can i? my heart skipped a beat no one else ever asked no one else ever cared if i said yes

i didn’t know you existed six weeks ago but now you’re making me pancakes kissing my forehead buying me flowers calling me honey singing my favourite songs if you keep this up i might start to think that being with you is better than being solo

i wanna be so gentle with you

everything was hard until we found each other i wanna give you a soft life

you're making me believe in the impossible like people can be reliable and consistent and stick to their word i've stopped second guessing and double checking i don't have to ask anymore cause when you say you'll be there it’s true

play with my hair the wrong candle leftover pizza coffee to go kiss me in threes soft hands cookie delivery tiger’s eye matching playlists two cars in the driveway miss you already girlfriends

dear passersby, please forgive this dumb look on my face i’m just in love and i can’t stop thinking about them

you're my favourite smell

and i like holding your hand we have the same interests and you listen to all my plans you're soft with yourself and understanding too you're aware of your needs and i can be honest with you could it really be this simple have i not been condemned is this what it's like to build a foundation i thought i only knew how to break them

i can’t believe i settled for scraps for so long bits of affection peppered with rejection taught that the only way i’d be worthy of love was begging on my knees with you it all comes so easily i’m standing on my own two feet i don’t have to ask for anything

it's instinctual to me to feel like love is finite like if i love you with my whole heart there's nothing left over but i'm learning that there's no limit on my capacity i can love you with all of me and still have so much more to give

i used to think i had to choose one love language to prioritize but effortlessly you give me all five

the inner child in me sees the inner child in you

the truth is for you i’d drive thirty thousand miles the truth is for you there’s nothing i wouldn’t do