There Is Room for All of You Here

by Michaela Angemeer

i would be more upset that you forgot about me if i didn’t forget about me too

my short term memory’s fried but i can still tell you everyone who wronged me as a child

if i eat off of my childhood plates one more time i swear i’ll time travel become the smallest i’ve ever been afraid to take up space again

i’m grieving my father but he’s still alive and i don’t know if i’ll have any feelings left when he dies

when you spend your whole life doing things you don’t want to do it’s hard to stop

just when i thought i got used to everyone leaving more people are planning their departures and i can’t do another goodbye

trust yourself. plan solo trips and go on them. celebrate friendships and chosen family more than you ever have.

romanticize everything you do by yourself. teach yourself how you want to be loved, and how deserving you are of it.

is it self-sabotage if it's in my dna

i know vulnerability feels like prying your chest open with scarred palms, but what if it’s worth it?

what if you find someone who knows you don’t deserve to be discarded.

i don’t wanna move too fast but do you want to uhaul

i don’t wanna move too fast but do you want to love me

when you whispered can i? my heart skipped a beat no one else ever asked no one else ever cared if i said yes

this time i thought about the future this time i cried tears of joy this time i felt everything

i don't have to ask anymore cause when you say you'll be there it’s true

a makes you playlists kind of love.

a spontaneous gift cause it reminds them of you kind of love.

a smiles at you for no reason kind of love.

a love that sees your unwashed hair, your crusty morning eyes, your overthinking, a love that loves you even more because of it.

you deserve an unconditional love. a love that makes you feel safe.

in my maybe i can grow into a greater version of me without worrying about doing it perfectly era.

i hope you don’t treat love like it’s a secret.