It was different than before. I used to avoid him just because I didn’t want to deal with him, but if we ran into each other, I’d have no problem stepping up. Now, I was avoiding him because I was trying but failing to get back to that mentality.
there's confusion here - he doesn't know how to focus when Devon treats him decently. he knows they're supposed to hate each other and he's struggling to deal with the change in their relationship.
