It’s not like I deserved anyone, anyway. I was a piece of shit trailer trash redneck who worked part-time on the rigs and cut grass at a shitty golf course. I had no redeeming qualities, nothing to offer, and a bad attitude on top of all that.
Devon again believes that he is worthless - something drilled into him his entire life - that he doesn't realize this isn't true. Maddox saw all of this about Devon in a previous chapter and admitted that he still wanted him.

