“So, now I’m sitting here all confused and angry about it, overthinking the logistics of how things work, feeling like a douchebag because you’ve probably been with all sorts of guys, and I’m just…me.”
We're finally seeing some vulnerability from Maddox - he's never had somebody interested in him (or care about him) and so he's confused. In a way he's similar to Devon, but whereas Devon thinks he's unlovable, Maddox thinks he's loveable so long as he's helping others - it's what's under the surface of all of his behaviour. That's why this thing with Devon is surprising - Devon doesn't want anything from him and he's not used to that.
