I couldn’t stop thinking about what had happened. I couldn’t remember, but no one let me forget, either. It was like this crater smashed open my life, and one day, I couldn’t step around it anymore. I fell into it. And once I fell, I kept falling, and thinking, until I didn’t want to think anymore. I felt like they wanted me to grieve differently. It felt like they were waiting for me to snap entirely. So I gave them what they wanted.”
