enjoy my life and care for the people I love in the ways I already could. I needed to accept who I am, where I am, and what I had to give, and find joy and satisfaction in myself and my journey “as is.” Even as I’m pursuing “more.” Even as I’m trying to grow. If my sense of worth hinged on being someone I’m not, or somewhere I’m not, I might spend my whole life chasing those things before I allow myself to actually live. I might (and did) lose the life I wanted. Even as I tried to make it to the starting line of being “good/capable enough” to live it.
