Now I can find joy in watching other people experience their interests; I genuinely like just being around people who are energized and celebrating something for the sake of pleasure. The version of me now would have just gone and LOLed at the intensity of the male-capri spectacle, happy for them that they’ve got their thing. But I wasn’t able to do that then, and I was incredibly negative toward my surroundings, and I’m not sure that I gave it a fair chance. I feel
