But that’s when it hits me. Like a ton of bricks. Like a train that just ran me over. Like a goddamn hurricane. I have a crush. An actual, bona fide crush on Holden Becker. I mean, it’s not like I didn’t know I was attracted to him before. But this is different. This is like, butterflies in my stomach, heart racing, can’t stop thinking about him kind of crush. And it’s freaking me out.
