“I’m sorry,” I say. “I shouldn’t have left you to deal with this alone. I should have been there for Isaac and for you. I just couldn’t cope with the grief. Everything was a reminder that she was gone, especially your sadness. It’s selfish, but every time I looked at you and Isaac, it was a reminder that I was the one that was alone. You had no obligation to me, but you did to Isaac. I didn’t want to feel like a burden on you. I wasn’t ready to say goodbye to everything I knew. I wanted to live in a world where I still had a family. I know it sounds like an excuse.”
